Well, today was my college graduation. I received my Bachelors Degree….but for some reason I don’t feel like I accomplished anything. It could be the fact that I am getting married in two weeks and am distracted by that, or the fact that I know I didn’t try as hard as I could to get straight “A”s….either way I am not very proud of myself.
Sitting in the crowd, next to hundreds of other students getting the same degree as me, kinda made me feel a little less special. I think I like to be unique… that is what drove me to be things like a phlebotomist and a personal trainer. So for me to know that there are so many other 23 year olds with my education or more is rather depressing.
I have been thinking more and more these past couple of weeks about going to grad school, but I think it really hit me today. I KNOW I can get my masters…. I just might take a little longer than some people but I think it is a goal in which I need to achieve.
I guess the lesson I have learned lately is to keep going. If I know I can do something…why not do it? What could be the worse thing to happen?… Will grad school completely take me over? If so at least I can say that I have tried it. But just sitting around, wondering if I could ever become a grad student, is something I would never be proud of myself for.
So, I intend to jump in with two feet. I want to make my parents proud, make Brandon proud, and most of all do it for myself, and hopefully I will finally be proud of my accomplishment.