Well, today was my college graduation. I received my Bachelors Degree….but for some reason I don’t feel like I accomplished anything. It could be the fact that I am getting married in two weeks and am distracted by that, or the fact that I know I didn’t try as hard as I could to get straight “A”s….either way I am not very proud of myself.
Sitting in the crowd, next to hundreds of other students getting the same degree as me, kinda made me feel a little less special. I think I like to be unique… that is what drove me to be things like a phlebotomist and a personal trainer. So for me to know that there are so many other 23 year olds with my education or more is rather depressing.
I have been thinking more and more these past couple of weeks about going to grad school, but I think it really hit me today. I KNOW I can get my masters…. I just might take a little longer than some people but I think it is a goal in which I need to achieve.
I guess the lesson I have learned lately is to keep going. If I know I can do something…why not do it? What could be the worse thing to happen?… Will grad school completely take me over? If so at least I can say that I have tried it. But just sitting around, wondering if I could ever become a grad student, is something I would never be proud of myself for.
So, I intend to jump in with two feet. I want to make my parents proud, make Brandon proud, and most of all do it for myself, and hopefully I will finally be proud of my accomplishment.
Wow Ash I love that you have a website!
I completely know how you feel! I felt the same at my graduation, you don’t feel accomplished or unique cause the other 2 million people around you have the same darn thing. I think that’s what happened growing up in Lucerne where everyone is unique and then you go out into the “real” world and there are soo many others like you. Still you should be proud and happy that you received your degree because even though hundreds of other people have the same degree as you there are still billions out there that don’t have one and you accomplished something that many people only dream about and never get the chance to accomplish. I’m super happy for you and proud to call you my educated friend! I know your family and friends and soon to be new family are proud of you!